

Laying down ...thinking about why I care so damn much about people that I shouldn't care for. Is it because I always want to give them the benefit of the doubt? Well, whatever it is, I always get f@#$%&. My husband always tells me to don't even bother because at the end of the day the only ones that matter are your family. He gets so angry when I get upset because he knows it was bound to happen. Giving 100% of your friendship to another person is questionable now, I've learned my lesson too many times. Iam not trying to toot my own horn but I have always been a damn good friend. Wether it was financially,emotionally or whatever you wanna call a " real friendship" I just don't understand why is it that certain people only like to befriend someone for their benefit. Iam not saying I'm the perfect friend to have. I've made mistakes and I own up to them. When all the parties, late nights, and memories fade, all you will have left is loneliness. And this goes to everyone. Don't take the people you truly care for, for granted...